As the final hours of 2016 close in on me, a movie of the events of the year is running on repeat before my inner eyes
Loosing the last one of my parents, my father, to cancer after 10 months of fighting was a blow. When you realise that you have lost the two people that have always had your back you realise that as they were your last line of defence and guardians, you are now the one who has to pick up the mantle and be defender and guadian to the ones that look to you for support and guidance: your children of cause, your lover, your friends and what is left of a small family.
I am now the last line of defence and guardian to others and my promise to myself and them is that I will do a better job than the ones I have learned so little from due to absence (father) and an all too premature death in her early thirties (mother)
I will be a better father and a better lover. I will be a better brother, a better cousin and a better person, a better man. No matter how late we discover them, if we don’t learn from our mistakes we can not improve as humans.
If we can not improve we stagnate and I will never be content with standing still.
Happy 2017, I hope 🙂